you may scream and i may shout.

Shouting is all I really want to do. All I really feel like is worth doing.

I'm tired of debating, tired of convincing, tired of arguing, tired of adhering to the virtues of patience and gentleness and understanding.

It feels like I am not accomplishing anything and not capable of accomplishing anything. It seems like life is slipping quickly and uneventfully. I just want a job to do, any responsibility I could do everyday. But that would even possibly make me feel just as stagnant, because I'm measuring success by the results I think are present, instead of God's measure of obedience. Oh God, your ways are so NOT my ways.

quizzzzzz: http://www.urbana.org/whole-life-stewardship-scripture-quizzes

Fisheye

baaad week

should i skip my 4o'clock class to breathe and plan an escaping adventure to the appalachian mountains for friday? or should i take on the responsibility and work to write some piece of a 2 page paper and go to my third class of the day?

and this is sara's cat! currently, i too have a couch on top of me.

Duvet Day.

My dear roomie bought me this amazing duvet cover from Ikea about one month ago and I have just now delighted our room with it! Happy October!

Lonely Parts

I love you and miss you, oh sooo much!

Truely, I hate where I am at right now in my thoughts and greatly miss a time of seemingly more understanding. Pleeeeease Lord, change something! Honestly, either I need to change or God needs to change, and that seems like an easy conclusion to arrive concerning which of us will most probably stay the same. But change for me doesn't seem to be in the near future, or at least positive change.

set free!

I discovered this Richmond, VA ministry yesterday at church when there was a representative visiting East End. What an incredibly encouraging ministry here in the city!!

SETFREERICHMOND

shhhhhh.

I gotta do more things in secret. That's such a hard task for me, I really love to externally process, to hear other opinions and feel support. But, recently I have been very convicted that I need a bigger "secret" life. God wants us to draw into an intimate friendship with Him and keep alot of that secret and He will choose what to reveal to anyone else. And often our secret times are shown through what happens in public, people can tell that you are either doing more or less behind the scenes from what you do on stage!

I wish there were a photo I could attach with this post, a CHAT one of course, but sadly my card reader has disappeared into the summer..so alas all you have are my words. neednt there be anymore.